What She Saw… I Wish I Could Unsee

I share this as an example of how careful we really need to be, not as a confessing ground or as repentance… As I mentioned earlier in my post Leaving Harry, I am becoming a reader. It might be time to turn back 🙂 Just Kidding. I recently finished- ISH “What She Saw…”  written by Lucinda Rosenfeld. I learned a huge lesson. Never in my life did I think that I would have to sensor what I read. I thought that only existed in movies, shows, and lyrics. Well welcome to the literary world CLARE! This book started out great, the whole time I was thinking I am going to learn so many good relationship tactics. It was a wake up read for a naive Mormon Girl. The book was full of sex, sex, and more sex (I can’t even imagine what 50 Shades of Grey could be about-crossed that one off my list). Now sex is not a bad thing, but it is something that should be saved for the right person and the right time in one’s life. At first I thought nothing of it because it was a book. Books can’t be bad, right? As the main character Phoebe sex- caped’s began to become more frequent and detailed, I realized it was something I shouldn’t be reading. I felt uncomfortable. At first I skipped pages and finally started to skip chapters towards the end. I wanted to finish the book because I had set a goal. Now I realize I have long term goals that override my short term goals. What I did read of the book was well written, but did not meet the standards that I live my life by. It made me reflect on how fortunate I am to have had good role models in my life, and that my happiness is not surrounded by the all encompassing topic of coitus. This book was supposed to teach me how to enjoy and love my twenties. All I can say is, it is a great guide of HOW NOT TO LIVE YOUR LIFE! In a weird way it helped me understand how important it is to keep uplifting media in my life. Some might be disappointed that I continued reading at all, it’s okay I am too. What I have learned now is I should research a book before I read it and see what value it will truly hold in my life, and if it does get bad have the courage to put it down. This might sound funny coming from a #truemillennial who was raised in one of the media’s most provocative era’s, but it still amazes me that there are so many people with such high values that have been exposed to so much. I always thought that when I grew up I wouldn’t make mistakes, I wouldn’t make bad choices… But when you do grow up you still make mistakes, you are still learning the simple things, and you’re not perfect (My parents still have me convinced).

Please note the sarcasm

50 Shades of Grey was really never on my list of to reads…

(C)LV2013